About the Author

Kathryn H. Ross is the author of memoir Black Was Not A Label (2019, Pronto) and poetry chapbook Count It All Loss (2021, GoldScriptCo). She writes and edits in Southern California and loves cats and naps. Read her prose, essays, and poetry at speakthewritelanguage.com.

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  1. Thank you so much this was so beautiful and deep I exhaled out loud. I find that I am afraid of approaching Yahweh sometimes also. I think what I want is not in his will, or I’m being petty or just am I worthy. I used to ask my close friends ho is it that God “speaks to them” but I don’t hear from him. One day I understood it’s because I am actually afraid of hearing from him. I am a therapist and thought about how would I decipher his voice from the many voices my clients sometimes tell me about when they are ill. But he does talk to me; in dreams and I like that so I guess you have to get the courage to approach the “darkness in different ways.

    • Your comment blessed me, Taliba! I’ve asked the same questions and wrestled with the same frustrations (is what I want outside of his will? Am I just ungrateful for what I already have?). I’m so glad you’ve been able to discern his voice when it comes in the ways you don’t expect. blessings to you!

  2. Thank you for your vulnerability, your tenderness, and clarity when it comes to building a relationship with God Complete. This essay was a treasure.

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